firsts

17Sep07

 For the first time in my adult life, someone actually thought I was straight.Wow…

I refuse to disclose the context of the situation to which may have lead to why s/he initially thought I was straight since it may unravel the inexplicable smile I have sitting on my face.

They haven’t told me yet why they were led to believe that, but I’m more curious about my own reaction than anything else. Why am I even smiling? Someone incorrectly identified the vigorously thick layer of social identity I have plastered onto myself over the years. Shouldn’t I be offended?

And worse yet, I think some gay men would also react similarly in my situation.

Internalized homophobia? Fleeting acceptance into the world that disavows our existence? A subconscious disgust of flamboyant behavior?

Why?

(btw i though the above picture was slightly homoerotic / obviously straight)

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